In The Dark

When i’m in love, i will get over possessive, getting worked out almost over anything at all, and not to mention selfish but still in a reasonable way laa! =.= So long as i’m still able to control all of above that, i’m not deeply in love. and if i don’t even have any of that,  i’m wasting my time laa. =.=  In general once i start caring, making the initiative, when i am bothered about something, saying i love you (and all of the other sweet words) and calling you pet names. You caught me, just the start of it. I know that i don’t date any other guys when i’m dating one. It’s just a principle i hold on to. And i’m proud of that. ^^

From what i believe, to love someone is to accept them as they are. If you chose to be bothered about their past then you should prolly reflect on yourself first. Are you that perfect in your past? To love someone is the best feeling you can ever get, day in day out just about him/her, smiling to yourself just when you think about him/her. But to be receiving back the love you have for them is the most AWESOME feeling ever you can ever get. But ya know, sometimes, humans take advantage of this. Which is somehow pretty sad. The mind kills, the heart is purely in love. Sometimes it’s just so complicated just by thinking of it. The best is to know what you want and how far would you go for the relationship. If not, just date yo?

Hope, i no longer hope. Hoping is expecting something. Why expect something when you know you wouldn’t get it and disappoint yourself? Girls just love hoping. Stop it lor?

Expectations, everyone has it. Everyone. Once you know that particular person, understand the situation and lets hope that you won’t expect too much. Or else disappointed again. Like the fuck? And you’ll be depressed and same shit happen over and over again?

Trust, it plays a strong part in everyone’s life, be it friends, families, neighbors, colleagues, even your pet animal. Gain it and keep it. Never break it. It sucks when you have to make the person trust you again without doubts.

Communication, very important, in anything at all. You should talk whenever there’s a dispute. Don’t keep it and hope for things to get better laa. Till judgement day it’ll still be the same. =.=

What’s up with the post? I just got inspired while i was showering. Random. But with what i went thru in the past few years. I’ve learnt.

I’ve learnt not to hope, not to fall too hard, not to promise, not to keep the sweet words, not to live in the fantasy world. Life’s awesome. You just gotta appreciate it. Love the life you’re living in and things are just gonna go your way, either way, you still can work it out and run your life.

Cheer up for those with negative thoughts, those thoughts kills. Be positive in whatever situation you’re in.
Never assume, never have doubts, never be negative and most importantly, never ever give up.

Be strong and alive and whatever yo!


Running Away Is Never The Answer.

the only advise dad has for me was to change, for the better. he made me think for the moment. i was too negative with all the thoughts. now, i choose, to change or not to. after the shit that i made. chances of me changing is very high. although i am at the verge of giving up. i know i’m strong.

thank you dad for always being there. although mum always feed me with those negative words which really made me lose everything. there was still hope for me.

the best part is, the holy month is coming. the best month ever to repent. take the chance and change. be strong and learn and never repeat the same old mistake. you know you can do it nazz. prove it.

you’ve got the self-confidence and self-motivation. you’ve got awesome friends. it’s time nazz. it is.

Obstacles In Life

Good afternoon humans! How’s life been for you?
Mine has been so awesome so far. Like seriously so awesome. Who says that single life is boring? It doesn’t when you have great friends and one hot date by your side. Awesome people by your side. And the best part, having your family by your side. I love y’all!

So, here’s something that I’m gonna share.. I am going for a short getaway tomorrow. 🙂 pretty much awesome with the people I’m going with.  It’s been so long since I went out of my country with a group of friends. Missed it.

I no longer see the reason of being in a relationship when it’s gonna be in and out. There’s no guarantee that you’d marry that person. It isn’t wrong to be holding on to someone, to look up to someone every time you wake up. Being able to smile to someone’s text. Well life isn’t that hard nor complicated if you choose not to. You choose your path in life.

If you chose to be in a relationship, commit yourself to it. There’ll be the time whereby everything in the world just go so wrong. But you gotta stand up strong and fight for it. I’ve learnt not to follow too much of my emotions. But it’s a mistake too, as I tend to overlook certain issues. That’s when I get taken advantage of. And when I put my emotions aside, I’ll be too heartless. =.= I AM SO FUCKING WEIRD. Maybe I’m not over certain things that happened to me in the past. But my past never ever failed me to be a better and stronger person in life.

If you chose to be single, it’s pretty simple, get to know people around you. Never give hope to anyone. Live your life to the fullest. And the most critical thing, never rush into a relationship. Learn from the past. That’s why we have memories.

Single life is awesome laa. Not committed to anything, yes you’d care for people around you. I mean, I care for most of the people who close to me. And there’s like a lot of them. =.= I love my people. There’s always a reason why you meet this person. A reason why you are attracted to them. But at times, you get too scared due to your past experience. So there comes trust, believe and faith. You just gotta believe in yourself and have faith in that person.

At times, whenever I look back at myself years ago. I would just smile and laugh at certain things. How things could be so simple, so complicated, so tough.. I took the path, it’s up to me who is gonna change it for my own future. I believe that I would be someone who is able to take more than I could and go through life even better than I am now.

Challenges is a must in life, without it, what’s life man?


its 5.14am in the morning and I am here all alone waiting for the first train. It’s pretty quiet when no one is around, even so people are just reading their newspaper or doing their stuffs, example like me. Blogging on my mobile.

I’ve come to terms about me not having a partner in life. How wonderful it may or may not be. I’m pretty scared to be committed to another relationship. I wouldn’t rush into things. Forget about settling down. Haha.. Now that’s a laugh for sure. It’s kinda awesome to be single.

I have someone in my mind right now actually. I don’t think it’s one sided. It may be. It may be at the same time. It’s making me have a hard time. Thanks to my previous relationship, I have learnt a lot. I have doubts and worries for my next. I am sorry to my upcoming new future boyfriend. Lol..

Well it’s not a laughing matter. Guys, they are pretty fucked up. I saw a guy who is attached, cheated in front of my eyes. What else do you guys have to prove to us girls?

Good day people. Just beware of the people around you..


It’s funny how some people would just enter your life and leaving you with deep scars or wonderful memories. It’s funny how they can mean so much to you and once they are gone, you realized that you can still carry on your daily life without worry.

It’s amazing how life is. The way that you are able to tell the difference between right or wrong. Good or bad. How life shows you how people are. Personally I would say it’s pretty scary when it comes to meeting new people. You wouldn’t know what they’ve been thru. Some are still traumatized about certain things. Some are getting back at you. And some are just treating life as a normal paper.

Life is funny. Natures are gorgeous. People are weird. And we should be thankful to Him.

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“Keep your dreams alive. Understand to achieve anything requires faith and belief in yourself, vision, hard work, determination, and dedication. Remember all things are possible for those who believe.”